Sunday, September 14, 2008

Should I cut or should I grow?

I'm in a debate with my hair. I like it short. I like it long. But I don't like it in between. So I'm trying to decide if I'm going to cut it again or keep trying to grow it out. Such a hard decision to make by myself so I'm going to post pic's of me with long and short hair below and let you vote! Let me know what you think I shoulds do! (oh and its anonymous-I"ll have no idea who votes what!) If you need to see more pictures of me with different hair lenghs you can click the link to my myspace page and look at the pictures in my albums there.


Long (not a great pix of alex though):

Saturday, September 13, 2008

5 Things I Don't Like

Here's the oh-so-obvious follow up to my last post!

1) I've gained weight. In the last 6 months I've gained a total of 20 lbs.Holy Crap Batman! The stress of moving and changing job (heck changing everything) has effected my waistline because I'm a certifiable STRESS EATER! We started eating health er last month and I've dropped 3 lbs, so I'm 17 lbs away from goal again. Still my suits I bought for work in April still don't fit, so I have a ways to go.

2) I miss EVERYONE! I call my mom almost every day on my way home from work. Some days are harder than others and its getting better, but I still wish I could just call someone to run to Target with me.

3) My job doesn't stimulate my brain. 'Nuff said.

4) I'm working so many hours that I have no motivation to do anything on my days off. Which means the dishes and laundry either don't get done or only get half done (if you ever come to visit you've heard the phrase "ignore the pile of clean clothes on the couch.)

5) There's no place like home. Have you ever tried to live in a 1000sq foot apartment after living in a 1700 sq ft house? I miss my house! I'm counting down the days until clinicals start, even though we may not be back in Fresno for clinicals, I can still hold out hope!

5 Things I Like

I've compiled a list of the 5 things I like about Alex being in med school. Here they are for your reading enjoyment.

1) We see more of each other now than we did when Alex was working EMS! Alex and I have pretty much the same schedule, so, for the first time in our 6 years of marriage, we are waking up and going to bed together at the same time.

2) Home cooked meals. Yes I'm cooking more because, if you read above, Alex is home more. It was kinda pointless before to cook every night for 1, so I use to just cook on nights he's home. Now I "get" to cook everyday!(lets see how long I stay excited about that)

3) The weather up here is gorgous! Its nice and cool in the mornings and warm in the afternoons. I definatly didn't miss Fresno's famous 113 degree July's.

4) I married to a man who LOVES to read. This may not seem a big deal, but in med school it has proved to be a HUGE advantage for him. He just reads the textbooks and somehow just absorbs the information. Which means he doesnt spend all night studying and cramming. Which means that we actually go on dates, and walks, and spend time together. And he studys while I blog :)

5) We are eating healthier. Now that Alex is learning about things like, for example, fatty liver, we are eating food that are better for us! We've both cut out liquor and coffee, and are trying to stay away from high fat foods. We're even working out together in the mornings.

Thursday, September 11, 2008


I just saw this video on a friends blog. All I can say is WOW. It's a song and video about a woman struggling with infertility. I have totally felt this way before.

*disclaimer - its a little depressing - just so you know

'Not so' hostile takeover

Yes I've changed the page. I've officially made this my blog to tell everyone about "our lives". The main reason is because I wanted to make the page "more girly". That and Alex hasn't written anything in the last 4 months since I started it so why not make it mine! He's still free to contribute :) So you'll probably be seeing some changes to the background - hope you still enjoy my blogging!

Friday, September 5, 2008

But Why, God?

(I've been struggling on waiting on God's timing for children the last few months, and found this devotion to be encouraging. This was a devotion posted on the Stepping Stones Infertility Forums that I have re posted because I thought it may be of help to others who are waiting on God's timing.)

But Why, God?
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Wait—it’s a hard word. Who is delighted at having to stop at a red light or gets excited about waiting in a long line? Waiting is especially hard when you are waiting for a prayer to be answered. We can be assured that our prayer is heard and will be answered, but the timing of the answer is in God’s hands. Waiting times are trying times. In my own experience of waiting, I have felt many questions about why the wait is so long. Weariness in waiting comes when I see desires fulfilled and prayers answered in the lives of friends. I am sincerely happy for them and rejoice with them, but I admit it makes the waiting harder. I get frustrated with myself when the questions fill my heart and I struggle to keep the vision clear. The enemy has taunted me asking, “Where is your God? What is He doing for you?” Though I grow weary, I remember the words of Isaiah,”The everlasting God…fainteth not, neither is weary…there is no searching of His understanding. He giveth power to the faint; and to them that have no might He increaseth strength… But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength…” (Isaiah 40:28-31). When I am discouraged and filled with questions, I pour it out before the Lord. David encouraged this, “Trust in him at all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us. Selah” (Psalm 62:8 ). My God has infinite understanding. Pouring out to Him draws me closer to Him. In these times He speaks to me, encourages and strengthens me to continue waiting on Him. I know He is MY God, MY friend, and He is on MY side. The way to wait on the Lord is worship and the Word. “I wait for the Lord…and in His word do I hope” (Psalm 130:5). Worship takes the focus off of ourselves and places it on our faithful Savior. We see by the examples in His Word that He is faithful and this waiting time is for His higher purpose. David and Joseph experienced waiting times between a calling, a dream, and the fulfillment thereof. Their waiting times were shaping times used to prepare them for the positions God had for them. The Word assures us that those who wait on the Lord will not be ashamed. David wrote, “I waited patiently for the Lord, and He inclined unto me and heard my cry…many shall see it and fear and shall trust in the Lord”(Psalm 40:1,3). Your waiting time is a testimony of God’s faithfulness. He uses circumstances in our lives to show others He meets us where we are, He will walk with us, and He will keep His promises. Your testimony of answered prayer and fulfilled desire will cause others to fear God and put their trust in Him. Isaiah 55:8-11 is an encouraging text as it tells us God’s word never returns void. It always accomplishes His purpose. The word He spoke to you will come to pass. The vision He gave you for your life will be fulfilled! “Wait on the Lord, be of good courage and He shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord” (Psalm 27:14).